Til' the man of her dreams picks her up and puts her on his shoulder

My poor little brain decided to go for english tonight, desesperating about all grammars and conjugation he might have to think about to not make any mistakes in french.
English works so well.
I got this song all day in my head, and how so many times, it make me think about myself and realize that I could have written this song. So many passages describe just exactly how I feel. Not as desesperate as the song can be, but somewhat close. got it ? I do. And it such a pretty sooong, full of hope =) just like me ..

I am not gonna make it
I can see the crowd around me
Is getting bigger, and as it is
I'm trying to figure out
Why I feel so isolated
I have my friends
But don't have much time for them
I have my house
A tiny pocket in my luggage
I have my boyfriend <3
But he's also so tired of listening to me 
Every single day
Seems like a mountain to climb
Every single word
It takes all my strength to get it out
I'm tired of talking about me
But in fact, it's the only thing
I get a grip on

Hey little girl keep on smiling:
Cause they don't want to hear you complaining
You're a lucky girl
Your life's so exciting
So I'll keep on making bad jokes
'Cause you think I'm strong
And it might be the way you like it
Oh how I need you to like me...

I have tried as hard as I can
I have tried to go through 9 to 5
But I was like a train
Between work and bars
Never found out what I was traveling for
Now I have my car
But I ain't got no safe place to go
I still hold my drink
But I'm not as thirsty as before
I have my voice
But I heard lately that people
Don't want to hear sad songs
Every single place
It's all the same to me
Every single face
I know it will be replaced
By another smiley one
Who will also be left soon
Somewhere behind

Hey little girl keep on smiling
'Cause they don't want to hear you complaining
You're a lucky girl
Your life's so exciting
So I'll keep on making bad jokes
'Cause you think I'm strong
And it might be the way you like it
Oh how I need you to like me.

So please now just don't count on me
I can't handle it anymore
And don't ask me why
If you don't want me to lie
But don't be alarmed
Don't you see that I'm just down
Just don't worry
Soon I'll (always) be back on the tracks

Smilin'!
'Cause I'll get tired of complaining
I'm a lucky girl
And I'm doing exactly what I wanted
So I'll keep on making bad jokes
'Cause I need to be strong
It might be my only chance to get out of it
And now I really need to make it !

Smilin - Pascale Picard